Comments on: Donald Lewis Heacock http://www.theheacocks.com/2007/07/donald-lewis-heacock/ Chris Heacock built this! Tue, 26 Oct 2010 14:57:10 +0000 hourly 1 By: Chris http://www.theheacocks.com/2007/07/donald-lewis-heacock/comment-page-1/#comment-128 Chris Mon, 02 Jul 2007 18:32:31 +0000 http://chris.theheacocks.com/myblog/index.php/2007/07/01/donald-lewis-heacock/#comment-128 :-) Crying isn't the intention, but it is often a byproduct of some serious contemplating. Especially when contemplating something as final as death. For weeks I couldn't even verbalize what I was thinking. It was like my mind was on pause, unable, or unwilling, to consider what had actually happened. Eventually, I can ask Grandpa exactly what he was feeling, and that's comforting. I honestly wish that I had taken to the time to do that earlier though. That very thing is what kept me from thinking it through. I guess it was a vague hope that if I didn't move on, maybe time would move back and I could work it out better the second time around. Obviously, that isn't going to happen, and moreover, I owe it to everyone else to actually say, "I can't fix or change this. It is a bummer that I can't. So, I'm not going to let this happen again." -Chris :-) Crying isn’t the intention, but it is often a byproduct of some serious contemplating. Especially when contemplating something as final as death. For weeks I couldn’t even verbalize what I was thinking. It was like my mind was on pause, unable, or unwilling, to consider what had actually happened.

Eventually, I can ask Grandpa exactly what he was feeling, and that’s comforting. I honestly wish that I had taken to the time to do that earlier though. That very thing is what kept me from thinking it through. I guess it was a vague hope that if I didn’t move on, maybe time would move back and I could work it out better the second time around.

Obviously, that isn’t going to happen, and moreover, I owe it to everyone else to actually say, “I can’t fix or change this. It is a bummer that I can’t. So, I’m not going to let this happen again.”

-Chris

]]> By: Jaime http://www.theheacocks.com/2007/07/donald-lewis-heacock/comment-page-1/#comment-127 Jaime Mon, 02 Jul 2007 05:10:12 +0000 http://chris.theheacocks.com/myblog/index.php/2007/07/01/donald-lewis-heacock/#comment-127 You make me cry every time. Darn you. You make me cry every time. Darn you.

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